it's a new year. we are six days in, and as i begin to process what i would have this year look like, i can't help but feel an overwhelming desire to run the other way, toward the safety of 2009. i know what it holds and what to expect. i like that about 2009. yesterday my friend
jessica and i chatted about how cool an oracle would be or perhaps time travel where you could simply proceed and if you messed it up or didn't like the outcome, you could just rewind and try again. i would like that. 2010 would not seem so ominous and would be far more approachable albeit far less exciting and surprising. and of course, foreknowledge would be kind of boring but would cause far less anxiety and uneasiness. perhaps that's why oracles don't exist and why we can't travel back or forward in time. the thrill of life would thereby be gone. and our risk-taking would prove no exciting, unexpected results and leave us (and others) unimpressed. so i suppose all is well with the world as it is and i have to embrace the unknown and open my arms to all that is 2010. perhaps if i reframe and sketch out a few goals and aspirations, 2010 will be more welcoming, more manageable more enticing to me. or perhaps if i spend the day in a coffee shop with good friends and verbally process my thoughts, then i'll be ready to take on 2010. oh wait, that's what i did today. done and done.
camille has a way about her that i quite enjoy. she is a dreamer, and she's honest. she doesn't let me get off easily and pushes me to be a better version of myself and grapples with my questions alongside me. i like that. and she often reminds me that i can accomplish anything i put my heart into. you can do it, put you're back into. (it's like that song in "save the last dance". haha). she is living proof of that. she dreams big and pushes herself to make it happen. the result:
recipe rx. a nifty health and wellness tool that is on the brink of revolutionising the way we think about food and heath. she's rockin' it. and i am proud of her and so grateful to have her in my life.
we talked about goals and new year's resolutions today. we wrestled with the complexities therein and wondered about the differences between dreams and goals. are they the same? is a goal a way to get to a dream? is a lofty goal just a dream? and should our resolutions be dreams? or goals? or both? when should we be practical? and when can we dream big? i'm not sure if we came to any definitive conclusions but we pondered and we questioned. this is a good thing a suppose. and we did decide that we are going to adopt
donald miller's approach to new years resolutions:
living a good story (be sure to read
part two also).
then shortly thereafter, i meet with my good friend
michele mollkoy and we talked about some pretty awesome stuff. that my friends will have to be part two of the new years post.
[addendum: more thoughts on new year's resolutions
here].
[sidenote: my friend
anna is a brilliant writer i think. her blog is titled "on life" and she titles all of her blog posts as such: "on_______". i like it. so i am pilfering the idea today. hope that's fine by you, anna.]